unwell

all day so stayed home from work which is not a good thing at all

but i feel terrible

that is 60 dollars off of my pay check

i've been watching edie sedgwick, courtney love, bob dylan, and andy warhol interviews 

all morning and old films that don't make any sense

my brain feels like it's in a vice

last night i dreamed that i was so sick that i kept collapsing and passing out 

in different places. once was on an elevator, once was outside while i was 

walking and i just fell, but it didn't hurt when i hit the ground, i couldn't feel anything. 

it was so strange, after i passed out, my brain was still awake, but i couldn't move any 

part of my body, like i was dead, and i knew i was dead but i could still comprehend 

what was happening, and i wasn't scared at all. 

any way i would like to get better soon because vegan dinner is tonight plus 

i feel so useless just laying here