brains

if i would let you into my heart
would you thank the lord would you tear it apart
and if words could talk the monster down
would you leave it alive or go in for the strike
and if dark were over thrown by the light
would the night turn to day
would it all turn to gray
and if time could tell you whose in charge
would you follow their lead?
would you plot their defeat
if flesh could crawl back to the bone
from terrors
build tiny sacred biolimbs from the marrow
(then) the pilot may stand or talk
like a fellow
but he's nothing more then peices
over a hollow
it is the same exact team
it is a walking pathway
and once your headed down it
there aint no turning back
our words are cautionary
because words are fun to say
you've got alot to carry
but once your there you stay there

i'm hungry

me: my stomach is still grumbly
roger: eat ur hand


my back hurts
wah
i want my mom

work

work work all day every day.i think i'm the most tired i've ever been in my whole life. no not really. but i don't want to turn into some dork who complains and is cranky all the time who only talks about work drama. but i am extremely exhausted. i think my brain is on autopilot. i did so many dumb things today. #1. forgot to lock the front door at work when i left... great i'm talking about work

eighteen

days until i leave for the great state of colorado. my momma is in town and we just went shopping and she's talking about how she wants to change my old room into an office and blah blah blah. i dont want her to. it took me three days of nonstop painting to make my room a golden yellow, by myself. even though i didn't cut out by the windows and it looks like a sunflower threw up everywhere but i'm still proud of it and it's exactly how i would want my room here to be. it has most of my old furniture and all my paintings. i think she's threatening me to make me move back so that it's safe from her interior decorating capabilities. which are great might i add. if i wanted my room to look like a log cabin with moose themed bedding.
but it has been so good seeing her, i wish she was my neighbor and that she would pay for me to go to the dentist and buy me soymilk like she used to. she is my best friend.
anyway i have a hot date tonight.
work christmas party, aka, akwarrrrrrdddddddddd
and free food!